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In the seventeenth century, the English Revolution is under way. The nation, seething with religious and political discontent, has erupted into violence and terror. Jacob Cullen and his fellow soldiers dream of rebuilding their lives when the fighting is over. But the shattering events of war will overtake them.
A darkly erotic tale of passion and obsession, As Meat Loves Salt is a gripping portrait of England beset by war. It is also a moving portrait of a man on the brink of madness. Hailed as a masterpiece, this is a novel by a most original new voice in fiction.

A Harvest Original

ISBN-13: 9780156012263

Media Type: Paperback

Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers

Publication Date: 01-07-2003

Pages: 588

Product Dimensions: 5.31(w) x 8.00(h) x (d)

Series: Harvest Original

Maria McCann was born in Liverpool in 1956, and educated there and at the University of Durham. Since 1985 she has been a lecturer in English at Somerset College. As Meat Loves Salt is her first book.

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ONE

Scum Rises

ON THE MORNING we dragged the pond for Patience White, I bent so far down trying to see beneath the surface that my own face peered up at me, twisted and frowning. The three of us had churned up the water until it was half mud and spattered with flecks of weed before I knocked my foot against something loose and heavy that lolled about as we splashed. I tried to push it away from us, but too late.

'It is she.' Izzy's lips were drawn back from his teeth.

I shook my head. 'That's a log.'

'No, Jacob - here, here-'

He seized my hand and plunged it in the water near his right leg. My heart fairly battered my ribs. I touched first his ankle, then wet cloth wound tight around something which moved.

'I think that's an arm,' Izzy said quietly.

'I think it is, Brother.' Feeling along it, I found cold slippery flesh, which I levered upwards to the air. It was certainly an arm, and at the end of it a small hand, wrinkled from the water. I heard My Lady, standing on the bank, cry out, 'Poor girl, poor girl!'

Zebedee reached towards the freckled fingers. 'That's never - Jacob, do you not see?'

'Quiet.' I had no need of his nudging, for I knew what we had hold of. Ever since we had been ordered to drag the pond I had been schooling myself for this.

'You forget the rope,' called Godfrey from the warm safety of the bank.

I looked round and saw the end of it trailing in the water on the other side of the pond, while we floundered. 'Fetch it, can't you?' I asked him.

He pursed his lips and did not move. A mere manservant like me must not speak thus peremptorily to a steward, though he were hanging by his fingernails from a cliff.

'Be so kind as to fetch it, Godfrey,' put in the Mistress.

Frowning, the steward took up the wet rope.

The pond at Beaurepair had a runway sloping down into it on one side, made in past times to let beasts down into the water. It was coated with cracked greenish mud, which stank more foully than the pond itself. We grappled, splashing and squelching, to drag the thing to the bottom of this slope, then Zeb and I crawled to the top, our shirts and breeches clinging heavily to us. Having forgotten to take off my shoes, I felt them all silted up. Izzy, who lacked our strength, stayed in the water to adjust the ties.

'Pull,' he called.

Zeb and I seized an end of rope each and leant backwards. Our weight moved the body along by perhaps two feet.

'Come, Jacob, you can do better than that,' called Sir John, as if we were practising some sport. I wondered how much wine he had got down his throat already.

'Her clothes must be sodden,' said Godfrey. He came over and joined Zeb on the line, taking care to stand well away from my brother's dripping garments. 'Or she's caught on something-'

There was a swirl in the water and a sucking noise. Izzy leapt back.

The body sat up, breaking the surface. I saw a scalp smeared with stiffened hair. Then it plunged forwards as if drunk, sprawling full length in the shallower waters at the base of the runway. I descended again and took it under the arms, wrestling it up the slope until it lay face to the sky. The mouth was full of mud.

'You see?' whispered Zeb, wiping his brow.

The corpse was not that of Patience Hannah White. Our catch was a different fish entirely: Christopher Walshe, late of this parish, who up to now had not even been missed.



'He is the servant of Mr Biggin, Madam.' Godfrey tried yet again, his beard wagging up and down. 'One of the stableboys at Champains.'

The Mistress pressed her veiny hands together. 'But why? Where is Patience?'

'Not in the pond. Not in the pond, which is as good news as the death of this young man is sad,' fluttered Godfrey. 'Might I suggest, Madam, that it were good for you to lie down? Let me take the matter entirely in hand. I will send the youngest Cullen to Champains and Jacob shall lay out the body.'

My Lady nodded her permission and went to shut herself up in her chamber. Sir John, ever our help in time of trouble, made for the study where he had doubtless some canary wine ready broached.

My brothers walking on either side, I cradled the dead boy in my arms as far as the laundry, and there laid him on a table.

'Directly I saw the hand, I knew,' said Zeb, staring at him. He pushed back the slimy hair from Walshe's face, and shuddered. 'It must have been after the reading. Two nights, pickling in there!'

'A senseless thing,' said Izzy. 'He went out the other way, we all of us waved him farewell.'

Zeb nodded. 'And not in drink. Was he?'

'Not that I saw,' I said. 'Unless you gave him it.'

Izzy and Zeb exchanged glances.

'Well, did you?' I challenged.

'You know he did not,' said Izzy. 'Come lads, no quarrels.'

'I have yet to say a harsh word,' Zeb protested.

In silence we took off our filthy garments in the laundry and washed away the mud from our flesh. Izzy gasped in lifting the wet shirt over his head and I guessed that his back was paining him.

'Thank God Patience was not in there.' Zeb, drying himself on a linen cloth, shivered. 'But this lad! Poor Chris, poor boy. Suppose we had not looked?'

'You were wise to leave off your shoes. I fear mine are ruined,' I said.

'Dear brother, that is scarce a catastrophe here,' Izzy replied. He found a basket of clean shirts and tossed one in my direction. 'That'll keep you decent until we can get back to our own chamber.'

'Godfrey could have bidden Caro bring clothes down for us,' said Zeb. 'What are stewards for, if not to make others work?'

'I would not have Caro see this,' I said.

'What, the three of us in our shirts?' asked Zeb.

'You tempt God by jesting,' said Izzy. He limped over to the boy and stood a while looking at him. 'Suppose it had been Patience? I would not be you in that case.'

Zeb started. 'The Mistress doesn't know, does she?'

'No, but it is the first thing thought on if a lass be found drowned,' Izzy replied.

Zeb considered. 'But there were no signs - if I remarked nothing - if any man had the chance, that man was I-' He broke off, his cheeks colouring.

Izzy crossed the room and took him by the shoulders. 'They can cut them open and look inside.'

'Are we in a madhouse? Cut what? Look at what?' I cried.

The two of them turned exasperated faces upon me.

'Ever the last to know,' said Zeb. 'So Caro has told you nothing?'

'Our brother has been hard at work, Jacob,' said Izzy. 'Patience is with child.'

So that was the key to their mysterious talk: Patience with child by Zeb. The great secret, taken at its worth, was hardly astonishing - I had been watching Zeb and Patience dance the old dance for some time - yet I was riled at not having been told.

'Two days and not in the pond. She is run away for sure,' said Zeb. 'But why, why now?'

'Shame?' I ventured - though to be sure, shame and Patience White were words scarce ever heard together, except when folk shook their heads and said she had none.

'She would not have been shamed. Zeb agreed to marry her,' said Izzy.

'What!' I cried. 'Zeb, you're the biggest fool living.'

'I like her, Jacob,' protested my brother.

'Oh? And would you like her for a sister?'

Zeb was silenced. What he liked, I thought, was the place between her legs, for what else was there? We would be all of us better off without Patience. It was impossible any should miss her braying laugh; for myself, I had always found her an affliction. She was Caro's fellow maidservant and a mare long since broken in, most likely by Peter, who worked alongside us and was roughly of an age with Zeb. Patience and Peter, now there was a match: loud, foolish, neither of them able to read, neither caring to do so. I had a strong dislike to Peter's countenance, which was both freckled and pimply and seemed to me unclean, yet I was obliged to admit that in many ways he showed himself not a bad-hearted lad, for he worked hard and was ready to lend and to share. I much preferred him to Patience, whose constant aim was to draw men in.

She had tried it once with me, when I was not yet twenty. Coming through the wicket gate with a basket of windfalls from the orchard, I found her in my way.

'That's a heavy load you've got,' she said.

'Move then,' I told her. 'Let me lay it down,' for my shoulders were aching.

'An excellent notion,' Patience said, 'to lay a thing down on the grass.'

She had never before fastened on me, and though I knew her even then for a whore I was slow to take her meaning. My coat was off for the heat, and Patience put her fingers on my arm.

'You could give a lass a good squeeze, eh?' She pressed my shoulder so that I felt her warm palm through my shirt. 'I'm one that squeezes back. I wager you'll like it.'

'I wager I won't,' I said. 'I've no call for the pox. Now let me through or you'll feel my arm another way.'

For some time after that we did not speak, but servants must rub along somehow - they have enough to do coddling the whims of their masters - and besides, I think Izzy said something to soften her. Since then we had behaved together civilly, as our work required. Peter was come next, I was pretty sure, and had consoled her for Jacob; but she could never have engaged Zeb's interest had there been a comelier woman in the house. There was Caro, of course; but Caro was mine.

Caro. Against Patience's slovenly dress and coarse speech, my darling girl shone like virgin snow. Naturally, there were huffs and quarrels between the two.

'She's lewd as a midwife,' Caro complained to me once. 'Forever snuffling after us: does he do this, does he do that.'

But I was no Zeb. I treated Caro always with the respect which is due from a lover and never assumed the privileges of a husband. Thus I again thwarted Patience by my self-command.

Self-command was the unknown word to my brother, and could have put no brake on his doings. Foolish indulgence had ruined Zebedee. He was only four when Father died, and missed a guiding hand all the more in that his beauty tempted our mother to spoil him.

'Zeb must go on with his lute,' she announced, when it was clear we had scarce a hat between us. To be just, he played well, and looked well even when he played out of tune. We Cullen men are all like Sir Thomas Fairfax, dark-skinned to a fault, but the fault shows comely in Zeb because of his graceful make and his very brilliant eyes. I have seen women, even women of quality, look at him as if they lacked only the bread to make a meal of him there and then - and Zeb, not one whit abashed, return the look.

I lack his charm. Though I am like him in skin and hair, my face is altogether rougher and my eyes are grey. I am, however, the tallest man I know, and the strongest - stronger than Isaiah and Zeb put together. Not that Izzy has much strength to add to Zeb's, for my elder brother came into the world twisted and never grew right afterwards. 'Izzy gave me such a long, hard bringing to bed,' my mother said more than once, 'you may thank God that you were let to be born at all.'

Now Zeb was to go to Champains, as being the best rider and also the most personable of the menservants. I did not begrudge him the job, for I rode very ill and was generally sore all the next day. My own task was humbler, but not without its interest: to clean the boy's body for his master to see it, and for the surgeon. This cleaning should rather be a woman's work, but I was glad to do it for otherwise, Patience being gone, it would fall entirely upon Caro. In the chamber we dressed according to our allotted duty, Zeb taking a well-brushed cassock and some thick new breeches for riding, myself pulling on an old pair over a worn shirt.

'Just wait, we will be suspected for this,' Zeb said to me, combing out his hair. 'You especially.'

'Me?'

'You quarrelled with him that night.'

'I wouldn't call it a quarrel,' I protested. 'We disagreed over his pamphlets, what of that?'

'Jacob is right,' said Izzy. 'Hardly a drowning matter.'

Zeb ignored him. 'It will put off your betrothal, Jacob.'

Izzy turned to me. 'Take no notice. He wants only to tease, when he should be examining his accounts before God.'

'What!' Zeb was stung in his turn. 'Patience isn't dead, nor did I send her away. I heard her news kindly, sour though it was.'

'So why would she leave?' I pressed him.

He shrugged. 'Another sweetheart?'

Izzy and I exchanged sceptical looks. Like all beautiful and fickle persons, Zeb aroused a desperate loyalty in others.

'Are you not afraid for her, with a boy found drowned?' Izzy demanded.

Zeb cried, 'Yes! Yes! But what can fear do?' He buttoned up the sides of his cassock. 'Best not think on it.'

'Think on your duty to her,' said Izzy.

Zeb grinned. 'Let us turn our thoughts rather to Jacob's betrothal. Now there everything is proper. A little bird tells me, Jacob, that Caro has been asking the other maids about the wedding night.'

'Away, Lechery,' said Izzy, 'and mend your thoughts, lest God strike you down on the road.'

Swaggering in boots, Zeb departed for the stables.

'Talking of my wedding night and his friend dead downstairs! He's as shameless as his whore,' I fumed.

'He is always thus when he is unhappy.' Izzy spoke softly. 'His weeping will be done on the road to Champains.'

I snorted.



As a child I was afraid of the laundry with its hollow-souding tubs. When later I courted Caro I did it mostly in the stillroom amid the perfume of herbs and wines, or - in fine weather - in the rosemary maze. The room where Walshe lay had a smell of mould and greasy linen, and as a rule I avoided it, not a difficult thing to do for men's work rarely brought them there.

I dragged off the boy's wet clothing and arranged him naked on the table. The silt in his mouth looked as if, stifled in mud, he had tried to gorge on it. I let his head droop from the table-end into a bucket of water and swabbed out his mouth with my fingers before squeezing more water through his hair.

When I bent down to check the ears for mud, I saw the nape of his neck strangely blackened, so rolled him onto his side. What I found gave me pause. Great bruises darkened the back of his neck, his thighs and the base of his spine, as if blood was come up to the skin. Perhaps all drowned men were thus marked. Pulling him face upwards again, I then worked down the body to his feet, which were wrinkled and colourless, hateful to the touch. As I went, I dried him on linen sheets found in one of the presses. Caro would be angry with me for that but she must bear it patiently unless she wanted to lay out the corpse herself. That I would not permit, for the thought of her tears unnerved me.

My thoughts being troubled, I was glad to work alone. The turning and lifting came easy to a man of my strength, for he might be sixteen and was as small and light as I was big and heavy. Little warrior. He lay utterly helpless beneath my hands.

'Where is your knife?' I asked.

The skin of his breast shone pale as cream where the flesh was unhurt. I stroked it and ran my hand down one of the thighs. So slender, so unformed. No glory in dispatching such. And no defence to say the Voice had urged me on.

Going to the stillroom for bandages, I found some ready torn. First I packed the boy's fundament, stuffing him tight. Next I bound up his jaw, and weighted down the eyelids with coins. He might as well be laid out for immediate burial, as there would be precious little for the surgeon to discover. Even a natural, I thought, could see what had done for this young man.

Christopher Walshe had been slit from above the navel to where his pale hair thickened for manhood at the base of the belly. The belly itself showed faintly green. The wound was deep, and, now I had rinsed it free of brownish water, a very clean and open one, for the blood had drained off into the pond like wine into a soup, leaving no scab or cleaving together of the flesh. Walshe had a boy's waist and hips, without any padding of fat to take off the ferocity of the blade, which had pulled right through his guts. His ribs and shoulders were dappled, in places, with blue.

There would be more bruising around his feet and ankles. I examined them, and found long bluish marks which might give the surgeon a hint, unless it were concluded that he had scuffled foot to foot with someone.

I put my finger into the wound. The edges curved a little outwards like the petals of a rose, and after an initial tension my finger slid in full length. He was cold and slippery inside. I withdrew the finger and wiped it on my breeches.



In the scullery every servant, even my gentle Izzy, was grown surly. That was a sign I recognised and had interpreted before I was given the news.

'Sir Bastard is come home,' said Peter, who had not been present at the pond-dragging and now stared sulkily at the table.

I groaned. Sir Bastard, or to give him his proper name, Mervyn Roche, was the son and heir and so disliked as to make Sir John popular in comparison.

'Will he stay long?' I asked. Much as I hated Mervyn, this once I was glad enough to talk of him, for I dreaded giving a report of the boy's wounds and seeing the horrified faces of my fellows.

'Who knows?' Izzy scratched with his fingernail at a crust of candlewax on Sir Bastard's coat. 'Look at this - stained all over and he throws it at me, expects it spotless tomorrow.'

'Why doesn't he buy new? He has money enough,' I said, lifting down the tray of sand.

'Drinks it away, like father like son,' said Peter. 'He is awash already.'

'Even his father doesn't go whoring.' I laid the first plate in the sand and began rubbing at it with my palm until there came a bright patch in the grey, then moved on so that the brightness spread. Usually I liked scouring pewter, but it would take more than a pleasant task to lift my mood with the weight that lay on me. And now Mervyn was in the house.

'As the pamphlet said, scum rises to the top,' I went on. It galled me to be a servant to such as he, lecherous, intemperate, devoid of wit or kindness, forever asking the impossible and, the impossible being done, finding fault with the work.

'Sshh! No word of pamphlets,' said Izzy.

At that instant Godfrey came into the room. 'I have talked with both Master and Mistress,' he announced.

'And?' asked Izzy.

'They have promised to speak to him. Peter, it were better you did not serve at table. Jacob and I will be there.'

'What's this?' I did not understand what was meant.

'O, you don't know,' said Izzy. 'Sir - ah - our young Master hit Peter in the face this morning.'

Peter turned the other side of his head to me. The eye was swollen.

'I will not ask what for, since to ask supposes some reason,' I said, and went on scouring.

'Humility is a jewel in a servant,' said Godfrey. 'It is not for us to cavil at our betters.'

'Or our beaters,' the lad muttered.

'To hear you talk,' I said to Godfrey, 'a perfect man were a carpet, soiled by others and then beaten for it.'

'And hearing you,' he returned, 'it is clear you have had some unwholesome reading lately. Take care the Master does not catch you at it.'

'How should that happen unless I left it lying in a wine jug?'

'Jacob,' said Izzy. 'Get on with your work.'

Such impudent abuses as these Roches put on us, grew out of that slavery known as The Norman Yoke. That is to say, the forefathers of these worthless men, being murderers, ravishers, pirates and suchlike, were rewarded by William the Bastard for helping him mount and ride the English people, and they have stayed in the saddle ever after. The life of the English was at first liberty, until these pillaging Barons brought in My Lord This and My Lady That, shackling the native people and setting them to work the fields which were their own sweet birthright. Now, not content with their castles and parks, the oppressors were lately begun to enclose the open land, snatching even that away from the rest of us. Roche, this family were called, and is that not a Frenchy name?

Though Caro thought our Mistress not bad, I had noted how little My Lady, as well asher menfolk, had trusted us since the war began. When they thought we were listening their talk was all of wickedness and its punishment. The King has Divine Right on his side, one would say, and another, New Model, forsooth. New noddle, more like, and there would be loud laughter. Then Sir Bastard might put in his groatsworth, how the rebels were half fed (for they thought it no shame to rejoice in such hunger), half drilled, half witted, so that the victory could go only one way.

But we heard things from time to time, for all that the Roches kept mum or even spoke in French before our faces - indeed, so stupid was Mervyn that he had been known to do so before Mounseer Daskin, the cook, who could speak better French than any Roche had spoken since 1066 - and we took heart. Servants came to visit along with their masters, and whatever their sympathies they brought news from other parts of the country. We were on our guard, however, in speaking with these, for there were those who made report of their fellows.

'It is said Tom Cornish is an intelligencer,' Izzy told me one day. This Cornish had once been a servingman, and was now risen in the world - too high for any honest means. He farmed land on the far side of Champains, and his name was a byword throughout the country for a dedication to the Royalist cause bordering on that religious madness called enthusiasm, and commonly supposed only to afflict those on the Parliamentary side.

'You recall the servants who were whipped?' Izzy went on.

I nodded. Not a year before, two men from Champains had been tried for being in possession of pamphlets against the King.

'Well,' Izzy went on, 'it was Cornish brought them to the pillory.'

'Impossible,' I answered. 'Say rather Mister Biggin.'

Biggin was the master of the accused men, and had made no move to defend them.

'Him also. But the one they cried out against was Cornish,' Izzy insisted. 'Gentle Christians both. More shame to Biggin, that he let them suffer.'

'You forget they had a serious fault,' said I.

'Fault?'

'Choosing their own reading. But Izzy, Cornish does not live at Champains. How would he know of it?'

'Tis said, he fees servants. Most likely, some who come here.'

It was not like Izzy to suspect a man without cause. I noted his words carefully, and I guess he spoke to the rest, for we were all of us exceedingly discreet.

Our masters were less so. Sir John, when in his cups, left his private letters lying about, and his son was alike careless. Mercurius Aulicus, the Royalist newsletter, appeared in the house from time to time; lately, we had noted with growing excitement, it was finding less and less cause to exult. Naseby-Fight, in June, had been followed by Langport, not a month later, and the half drilled half fed had triumphed in both. 'The Divine Right,' jeered Zeb, 'seems sadly lacking in Divine Might.'

Izzy pointed out that the soldiers on both sides were much of a muchness, for though the Cavaliers prided themselves on their fighting spirit and high mettle, they had the same peasants and masterless men to drill as their opposites.

'Besides, Sir Thomas Fairfax is a gentleman,' he added, 'and this Cromwell a coming fellow.'

Not that we were reduced solely to Mercurius Aulicus. Godfrey was right, I had found me some reading and was very much taken therewith, considering it not at all unwholesome.

It was begun a few months before, by chance. Peter went to visit his aunt who worked at Champains, and there met Mister Pratt, one of the servants, and had some talk with him.

'Eight o'clock behind the stables,' Peter whispered to me that night. I went there after the evening meal, along with my brothers.

Peter held out a sheaf of papers. 'Here, lads, can you read these?'

Izzy took them and bent his head to the first one. 'Of Kingly Power and Its Putting Down. Where had you these?'

I snatched at another. 'Of True Brotherhood - printed in London, look.'

'Will it do?' asked Peter. 'And will you read it me?'

'We shall all of us read it,' Izzy promised.

These writings became, in time, our principal diversion. After the first lot, they were brought after dark by 'Pratt's boy', that same Christopher Walshe who later lay in the laundry, naked under a sheet.

It was our pleasure on warm evenings sometimes to take our work outside, behind the stables where Godfrey never went, Zeb and Peter drinking off a pipe of tobacco as part of the treat. There we would read the pamphlets. Printed mostly in London, they spoke of the Rising of Christ and the establishment of the New Jerusalem whereby England would become a beacon to all nations.

'A prophecy, listen.' Zeb's eyes shone. 'The war is to end with the utter annihilation of Charles the Great Tyrant and the Papist serpent - that's Henrietta Maria.'

'I know without your telling,' I said.

'Measures are to be taken afterwards. In the day of triumph, er, O yes here 'tis - The rich to be cast down and the poor exalted. Every man that has borne a sword for freedom to have a cottage and four acres, and to live free-'

We all sighed.

'There shall be no landless younger brothers, forced by the laws to turn to war for their fortunes, and no younger brothers in another sense neither, that is, no class of persons obliged to serve others merely to live.'

'A noble project,' said Peter.

At that time these writings were the closest any of us came to the great doings elsewhere, for at Beaurepair things went on much as they always had, save that the Master and Mistress were by turns triumphant and cast down. We had escaped the curse of pillage and its more respectable but scarce less dreaded brother, free quarter: no soldiers were as yet come near us. Sir John was too fond of his comfort to equip and lead a force as some of the neighbours had done, so he neglected to apply for a commission and his men were kept at home, to pour his drink.

In the reading of our pamphlets we servants were, for an hour or so, a little commonwealth. Though Peter and Patience could not read, the rest of us took turns aloud so that all might hear and understand the same matter at the same moment, and then fall to discussing it. Izzy had taught Caro her letters and she did her part very prettily, her low voice breathing a tenderness into every word she spoke. I would sit with my arm round her, warming to that voice and to the serious expression of her dark eyes as she, perhaps the least convinced of us all, denounced the Worship of Mammon.

'So, Caro, the Golden Calf must be melted?' Zeb teased her one time.

'So the writer says,' my love answered.

'And the Roches levelled with the rest of us?' he pressed. 'What say you to that?'

Caro returned stubbornly, 'I say they are different ne from another. The Mistress-'

'The Mistress favours you, that's certain,' put in Patience, whose coarse skin was flushed from too much beer at supper.

'And not unjustly,' I said. 'But what is favour,' I asked Caro, 'that you should take it from her hand? Why are not you rich, and doing favours to her? Surely God did not make you to pomade her hair.'

'She deals kindly with me nonetheless,' Caro retorted. 'God will weigh us one by one at judgement, and she is clean different to Sir Bastard.'

'That may be,' I allowed, 'but she trusts us no more than he does. Besides, we cannot put away one and not the other.'

'If Mammon be pulled down,' Izzy warned, 'we must take care the true God be put in his place and not our own wanton desires - the God of simpleness, of truth in our speech and in our doings, the God of a brotherly bearing-'

He paused, and I saw his difficulty. We Cullens were the only brothers present, and Zeb and myself were constantly at one another's throats.



The night before Patience ran off, we spoke long on a pamphlet circulated by some persons who farmed land together. Young Walshe had but just brought it, and having some time free he stopped on for the talk - 'Mister Pratt knows where I am,' said he - and sat himself down between Zeb and Peter to get a share of their pipe. I thought him overfamiliar, even unseemly, passing his arm around Zeb's waist, but Zeb liked him well and on that night he sat with his arm round Walshe's shoulders, and laughed when the lad's attempts to smoke ended in coughing, though it was he that paid for the tobacco. Patience lolled against Zeb on the other side, and a man would be hard put to it to say which fawned on my brother more, herself or the boy.

Our debate was not strictly out of the pamphlet, but grew out of something beside. The writers freely said of themselves that they shared goods and chattels, but it was rumoured of them that they had also their women in common and considered Christian marriage no better than slavery.

'Does "women in common" mean that the woman can refuse no man?' asked Patience, looking round at the men present. Except when she gazed on Zeb, her dismay was so evident that for a moment the talk was lost in laughter, not least at her sudden assumption of chastity. I laughed along with the rest, thinking meanwhile that she had nothing to fear from me. I took none of Zeb's delight in women who fell over backwards if you so much as blew on them. In Caro I had settled on a virgin, and one whom I would not take to my bed until we had been betrothed.

'Does it mean that men are held in common too?' jested Izzy. 'It seems to me that if no woman is bound to no man there can be no duty of obedience, and so a woman may as well court a man as a man a woman. So may the man refuse?'

Peter considered. 'Obliged to lie down with all the women!'

'For the sake of the