Table of Contents
When I Transition Will I Lose My Taste for the Storm? 3
On Wanting Top Surgery in the Fascist Regime 7
When Face to Face with Fascism 8
My Shadow Looks More like a Man than I Do 10
Sinners Must Live with What Their Sins Sow 11
There Is a Point at Which I Tire of My Own Fear 12
My Body Is Constantly Conjuring a Tempest 14
On Trespassing 16
The Once Girl Hunts to Feed 18
On Harvesting Oneself 19
Funeral for a Girl Who Grew Up in the Woods 20
If The Water Weren't So Deep, Narcissus Might Not Have Drowned 21
Comforting My Trans Self through the Night 22
Two Queers Walking the Borderline Between 23
Elegy for the Undead 24
Making the Desert Wet 26
Drought Becomes Me 27
Poem with No Water at All 28
On Attempting to Clear the Air 29
I Wish All Children Could Touch the Sky At Least Once 30
Fourth of July and Trans on the Brooklyn Side 32
On First Meeting My Future Husband-Wife 34
1081 Nautical Miles and I Want to Ask You 35
When Vesuvius Erupts Again I'll Cool My Tongue 36
Love Poem Written for the Last Swampland 37
When the Sissies Make Love to Every Cardinal Direction 38
Cleopatra Came Out as Queer but the World Was Not Quite Ready 39
When Cleopatra Comes Back from the Dead 41
If Juliet and Juliet Change Their Names 42
I Imagine Juliet and Snow White Would Make a Beautiful 43
Poem in Which I Dream Share With My Future Husband-Wife 44
Someday I'll Love Myself See Through 45
A Limbo Moon Above // You Will Fall in Limbo Love 46
Our Root System is a Tangle of Pipecleaners 47
My Horoscope Is My Future Husband's Horoscope 48
My Future Husband-Wife and I Make a Blood Pact 50
Love Poem with a Lack of Conception 52
Thoughts on Romance as the Heat Index Rises 53
Notes Toward Top Surgery and the Impending Death 54
A Spell to Absolve Your Own Transness 59
During My Top Surgery Consultation 60
My Mother Believes in My Marriage and this Shows Me Her Heart 61
Expressing My Feelings to My Future Husband-Wife 63
In Bed with My Future 68
Notes 71
Acknowledgements 75